The emotions just come and go before I become numb. It's been 6 months but still the feelings haunt me. I don't know how people manage it, maybe someday i'll know too. But as of now am not doing so great.
What I have realised these past couple of months is that you cannot trust anyone except ur family only if ur close to them. otherwise people just walk over you. I have realised that on the outside they may be charming, trying to show every possible face but who they really are.
Are we so scared? are we so fake? Who do you turn to, when there is no one left. What are the sea of people around you for? These thoughts come to me when I am confused. The ofcourse comes his sister misery. Then all the bad deeds done to you come flashing by and you realise just how easy it is for people to fool you.
Then comes hate, so powerful replacing all the love that you had to the point where you just want revenge and then you think who are you to do that. Mostly because you can't to be honest. Then you turn spiritual and wish that karma would do your job.
But eventually you see that the people who have done you wrong are still happy and that's because they don't care. This becomes your problem because you still care. There should be a medicine to finally make you numb before you go through this procedure because it rips you open and you realise what a big fool you are?
