Sorry seems to be the hardest word!!

Sometimes things just don't go the way you plan. Sometimes you screw the situation so bad that no matter what you think you can do to turn it around it just does not happen. 

One misunderstanding, one stupid fear makes you do things you regret. All you do is think of ways that you can mend it but then again whats done is done. 

Sometimes you just have to live with it. Words take a life of their own, they don't come out in the right tone and then the damage is done! 

How I wish things could change, but its just me sayin this. How I wish I could make the situation clear. How I wish I would get an equally eager reply but In the end you pacify yourself thinking maybe it was not meant to be. 

And then you just hope that maybe........

Lauryn Hill at her best!!

"Selah"

Nothing can be done against the truth
no matter how we remain in denial, yeah
Wasting time, replacing time with each empty excuse
but they'll only work a little while
Coping with despair, knowing you're not there
ashamed to just admit I've been a fool
So I blame it on the son, run away from everyone
hoping to escape this ridicule
Trapped in misery, wrapped so miserably
and this deception, I wear it like a skin
Dying to maintain, oh I keep trying to explain
a heart that never loved me to begin
Oh I'm such a mess, I have no choice but to confess
that I've been desperately trying to belong
Lying to myself and everybody else
refusing to admit my right was wrong, and then he came

And then he came
Selah, oh and it means
Praise and meditation, and then he came
Selah, oh and it means
Did you think about that, and then he came
Selah, oh and it means
Praise and meditation, and then he came
Selah, oh and it means
That it is seen

How beautiful is fruit still in denial of its roots
my guilty heart behaves so foolishly
This treason from within that reasons with my sin
won't be happy till it sees the death of me
Selfishly addicted to a life that I depicted
conflicted cause it's not reality
Oh what's left of me, I beg you desperately
cause me to agree with what I know is best for me
Please save me from myself, I need you, save me from myself
please save me from myself so I can heal
The choices that I've made, oh have been nothing but mistakes
what a wasted use of space, should I die before I wake
In all of my religion, I've fortified this prison
obligated to obey the demands of bad decisions
Please save me from myself, I need you
save me from myself, please save me from myself so I can heal

And then he came
Selah, oh and it means
Praise and meditation, and then he came
Selah, oh and it means
Did you think about that, and then he came
Selah, oh and it means
Praise and meditation, and then he came
Selah, oh and it means
That it is seen

And then he came
And then he came, then he came, then he came
And then he
And then he came

A Winter Day!

Looking amist the foggy window,

Dark clouds cover the sky,

Rain falls down and takes you by surprise,

Coz its just another winter day's delight. 

Everything you hold on to,

Blown away by the cold wind,

Waiting for the clouds to clear,

Waiting for the sun to shine again. 

Awake in the early hours,

Thoughts plague your mind,

All the things which didnt work out,

Leave you sour and blind. 

Now the sun does not shine,

You sulk and you cry,

Then again you think,

Just another winter day's plight. 

All the things you go through,

Raised hopes and dreams,

All alone like a fall leaf,

Struggling to not let go of its tree. 

The clouds will finally clear,

Sun will shine again,

Another winter day will fail,

When your spirit will shine away.