A Ripple!

Just like a river,

Our life flows,

Full of numerous,

Joys and sorrows.

Just like the river,

We have a source,

And very much like it,

Is our life's course.

Bouncy and gay,

As it flows down the mountain,

Like the merry child,

Bursting with joy, a fountain 

Such a delight.

Similar to the river,

That reaches the plains,

Gradually, as the child grows,

Its enthusiasm is slain.

Then come rapids and waterfalls,

Like the dangers in our life,

And all the organisms,

Which stick with the river,

Just like a human's wife.

Old age comes and is lost in anger,

Of middle age and joy of a new child,

Similarly, the river becomes,

Oh so slow and mild.

It crawls along slowly,

Laden with sand,

Just like the elderly,

Laden with experience,

Simple and grand.

The river meets the ocean,

And is lost forever,

Just like when we sleep,

To wake up never!

Metamorphosis

Like darkness breaking into light,

I did some soul searching tonight,

Finally found the answer to my discontentment.

For long I've wept,

Thinking I was the cause and the effect,

But finally I realised I was,

weeping for the wrong reasons all along.

I wish to live now,

To see the new day in a new light,

I thought I had died,

But I know now that I am more alive.

It was just a phase,

A metamorphosis in space,

Like from being a catterpillar 

Turning into a beautiful butterfly agate.

So many who hurt us intentionally,

so many more who hurt us unknowingly,

I thank them this day,

For making me understand who I am today.

Like the flowing water, like the wind and the breeze,

I take the pledge to run free,

Without any sorrows or demise,

To live the life I was born to live,

With love alongside!

Pure Shore!

 

Stranger is the tide,

Which touches the shore,

Everything is new,

When love is gold.

Impossible becomes easier,

Souls unite,

War of words happen,

That bring such delight!

Need is a hope,

A hope to belong,

Desire sways you in a way,

But one day love will fade away.

I want your heart and soul,

To thank me eternally,

Such beautiful serenades,

Were created after meeting me.

The breath you took is mine,

That heart of yours is mine,

Lets create history sublime,

Lets break these walls tonight!

If Life was this Easy

 

If life was this easy,

Where would the thrill to live be,

So dry and coy to grow,

There would be no point in living it seems.

A question we ask every day,

Why do we love, if only to suffer the pain,

Memories become weapons,

An ammo of choice to blame.

A mist then rises,

Clouding my vision,

Turning the mist to  drizzle,

That does not seem to ease the pain a little.

I cry, I cry,

To suppress the agony,

My heart does not heal,

Because its wounded so badly.

If every one was happy,

where would sadness prevail,

That's the story of life,

After all its just a game.

We write our sorrows,

Pain turning them into mystic words,

They mend the soul a little,

But still sway to the same tune.

We wish and pray to him,

To him all the same,

To make our lives a little easier,

So that we have the strength to stay.

Because today feels like the right day to write

Out of the blue,

I remember your touch,

Your breath on my neck,

Your skin on myself.

The laughter, the fun,

It came back tonight,

To haunt me endlessly again this time, 

The way you used to look into my eyes,

That smile, oh that smile made me glow,

That took my heart miles away, gloriously high.

That boy, that man I wanted to be with,

Your smell, your hands, your every stride,

Bringing me closer to u everyday and every night.

But I try hard to forget,

Remembering all the pain u gave me,

The thought that u never fought for me,

You never intended to anyway,

Maybe I was not deemed worthy to sway.

My happiness took one last breath in me,

Shadowed by the grief you left inside me,

I earned this right to hate you every night,

For my love unconditional had this fate,

To forget but to never forgive you for centuries that lay ahead !

Introspection

Ok it’s established, I am highly motivated when someone royally pisses me off. Earlier in my life I was rather short tempered but somehow and after immense coaxing from people around me, I've learnt the knack to show case calm exterior in the moments of utter anguish.

As I look back and read my blog, I still feel the need to educate myself on people and their character and personalities. It is clearly a point of major disappointment for me in my life. I trust too soon, I fall too soon; I just get in too soon without thinking. In a span of let’s say xx years (*giggles), I have still not mastered the art to judge and read people for who they are.

How mislead and misguided I am at times for some people, makes me want to get therapy. Like for today's example, kinda sorta liked this guy. Intellectually speaking, he kinda sorta stimulated me (:p) but then reality happened:

Highlights, need you ask:

• He lied who he was to begin with (never could understand this actually)
• He tried to flirt with me and my 18 year old sister simultaneously (and don’t know how many more)
• He is totally utterly confused and misguided bout himself
• Was pretty good at attempting to  judge me but alas could not
• He has major misconceptions about himself
• Seriously confused and demented
• Borderline (tipping towards the end actually) nymphomaniac

I mean then again living a life which is romanticized to such an extent that you get so far away from reality is totally utterly surreal. It's not like it is in the books, one of which he quoted, Erich Segal’s love story. You need to give time and space to people. You need to establish trust and give time to the other person to know who you are. Where are the men who wooed a woman endlessly till they got their hearts desire (No I am not quoting a book myself, I researched it :/). The fact that in today's world, everything is so fast paced that you feel if you don't fulfil that request, you will never be able to find love. Not that I am out there looking for it anymore. I think that with Indian Men it’s very rare that you can even get that sort of conduct.

But I feel it’s a waste of words and your breath to explain this concept to people and make them aware of the same value of this over glorified feeling (love I mean). I think now my strategy is pretty clear, just go with the flow. Let the ones who dive in too quickly hit rock bottom whereas you experience it wave after wave.

And as I am writing this blog, I feel that’s another week of my life that I have totally and completely wasted on another person who does not and nor ever will matter. Key points that I need to work on, and change myself totally is the need of the hour. I think I waste too much of my precious self and energy on people. 

This has to change!

A little bit Everyday!

It comes and it goes,

The feelings elated,

If you dare a step ahead,

Your world comes crashing again. 

The thought, the desire,

It pains you every single day,

Today or tomorrow

Your past haunts you everyday. 

It makes you who you are they said,

But no one showed the way,

You stumble and you fall,

But no one stays to take you away. 

The next morning you wake,

Confused and dazed,

Are u in the present,

Or you are lost in yesterday. 

Then you build courage,

You know its another day,

Step by step u sway,

To do the dance again!