2nd Month of #100Happydays

Time is running out, so fast that it is becoming extremely difficult to hold on. Have successfully completed my 2nd month of 100 Happy days challenge and it is pure bliss. The changes I see in myself, am able to let go better, search for happiness even in the smallest of things. I am more determined and love me a tad bit more and love those who love me ...a whole lot more :)

So here is the journey so far....

Right so meet Sonaksh and Neilaksh..two greatest love of my life...Having raised both of them for 6 months each, taking care of them when their mom left them with us (which I openly thank her for..coz not many mothers can do this u know) am almost a pseudo mom to them and they shall always be my first babies...my heart my love!!!..everyday is bliss when I talk to them, when I hear or read about their progress and when they love me back :)) miss them kiddos...*teary eyed*

hmm so I really needed a break after 6 months of slogging my ass and missing my family badly...the much awaited vacation came and it was such a bliss!

Reunions...had not met Tannu (my sis) for 8 months and it was a fab moment...reunion with the ones you love are always great..of epic proportions! and ofcourse meeting my Bro in law is always fun...such a funny guy!

ok so I either wanted to do waterfall or the beach...and BEACH won coz am totally a sea creature...wat a mesmerizing view...bliss * lost again*.

SHOPPING and that too totally funded by my sister and BIL...like totally awesome!

Eh..wanted a change...got it and loved it :)

Right am a foodie...and this has to be one of the best breakfast  buffets ever...Mount Lavania in SL..omg awesome view and the food yummm...muahhhhhhh and the company..amazing! Am all happy just thinking about it!

This has to be the second best moment of this second month...meeting mom after 6 months...funny how you miss your mom sooo much that it's impossible to word it. I was like a monkey on her...her youngest monkey :D

 

OMG OMG OMG...that's the feeling...so the celebrations actually began 3 weeks prior to my bday,..ya dats how cool my family is ;). Gifts started coming in every week and I was totally taken. On the D Day.. it began with calls and txts and msgs...from all social platforms - Twitter, FB, LinkedIn  (crazy that was)...I woke up and saw that mom had laid down gifts all the way in a trail haha cards from my babies, cards from my sisters, bro in law, jewellery, perfumes, awesome tea cup (total tea-holic), followed by yummy cake filled with candles and awesome surprise (and I cried). My friends went out of their way to dedicate DP's and special status msgs..long heart to heart chats (bliss) * tears again*. My uncle had his home filled with balloons on my bday *tears again* Fabulous lunch my fav lebanese cuisine and then some friends came over...more gifts...den evening dinner at Raddison blue..Italian ..another favorite. Strangers on their way to becoming friends, wishing the best for me..truly took my heart...this was indeed a milestone bday :)

Friends Rock...that's it ..through thick and thin they rock!

IKEA...heaven..such amazing concept..had to plan my appt...and was bliss planning the shit out of it haha

YESSSS.....I WON * Victory Dance*..coz as Aerosmith said it...PINK IT WAS LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT

June is a busy busy month...so off to fun and celebrations it was!

I love quirky things...and trust me it makes a whole lotta difference if you have some creative motivation to help you do your work...which I should be doing right now instead of writing this blog ..*evil grin*

A bday to remember when you get gifts post your bday haha..am loved *happy feeling*

I love big cars and I cannot lie :p...was super awesome to take this beast around...laughter and fun times continued as usual but some day baby am gonna ride you over the desert..*wish*

Tasneem...thats a Patisserie  in Doha...man o man the best red Velvet ever...ORGASMIC..followed by Gondola ride ..but Vegas was far better..the guy was cuter and he had the voice of an angel when he sang to me...next trip VENICE *planning begins*

I love cooking..esp for people I love. I am an awesome cook..as per others * too humble I know*..but ya I have my tricks :p...So made chicken fried rice for the bhooka clan

What a night..awesome company..was totally international..turk's, srilankan's, british, scot's, Indians...and the fun continued over arabic food...haha totally rocking

Bonding time: Talks, family discussions, gossips, planning, strategy, fights, laughs and pics...that's us

There is something about your place, it's just ur's...no matter how much you wanna get away from it...you just feel at peace when you are back..* though the feeling lasts only 5 min's, when you see a bunch of dumb asses who totally ruin your day! hmmphh

Office reunion: FOOD, FUN, and FANTASTIC COMPANY. Meenu one of my colleagues, she is totally Annapurna maa,...only difference is she force feeds but I love her to the core. A fellow gemini but totally mothers us and the heart of a saint *Love her*

Not to brag but I was looking pretty decent...so many compliments...the entire day was mad.. * blushes*

In the middle of our laughter fits...not a rare sight mind you..v r  just crazy

Egg curry : awesome and neilu baby went from "roini" to "Rohini".. though we need to work on masi which he refuses to speak * naughty*

Bad day of epic proportions...one wish unfulfilled...faith on god shaken..but family and friends made it better. With swollen eyes and devoid of eyesight *literally* a day when I knew how much I mean to these people...just amazing ...still hurt a lil but ill survive!

meeting a friend and reunion, and OMG Siddharth Malhotra..am gonna &*(^%%$$^&*###$^& *censored*

Shopping has it's perks but giving is amazing. To see the happiness when others love the stuff you get for them and how you make it a surprise...that's just me I guess..I love giving!

Hmm so this happened today and look how motivated I am to write this blog...creativity does that to me I guess..but how cute is my desk * giggles*

Wow second month also passed and you know what... I love it...I've grown stronger and the feeling of "want" is disappearing...slowly but it is going away..am happy in my skin though I need to now work on certain areas of my life ..that's the upcoming agenda...

So until next month...adios amigo's

On a Stranger's Tide....

How does it feel when your heart breaks over and over again….NUMB..that’s the feeling you go through..an unfaltering abyss…..you don’t care …you don’t feel the tears burning in your eyes, they just slide away. They don’t stop..no they don’t but involuntarily just do what they were meant to do.

All you are faced with is the hard reality of life and pain. That’s the feeling that you most feel..utter pain..and then you feel frustration. Someone who you once knew and loved is now a stranger, heading forever into the arms of another, becoming someone else’s destiny, the father of her children.

Love which had turned to hate and then denial. You still have the memories, you still hoped for those what if’s for the impossible to happen but then at when you are faced with the truth you see your hopes and dreams buried with clarity. All the scenarios you played out in your head and all the situations you prepped yourself for…just vanish….

To each his own, that holds true…maybe I didn’t see it yesterday but today it’s staring me right in the face. It is actually a satisfaction that you can finally move on in your life. It’s a message that urges you to find your own happiness.

Suddenly you don’t want to think of all the good times you shared…or the intense pain the other gave you, which left you dead and cold. You no longer wait for the unsaid apology but still you forgive.. or try to. All the reasons you wanted to know why it didn't work out, why you were not worth the fight…dissolve! Close that chapter, you don’t belong there. Mend your heart and your soul…fight for your sanity!

You have been wronged..yes very much..you devoted yourself and then you were left out on the path you both dreamed while the other still continued on it.  Count your blessings at this point, repeat “This too shall pass” and call your inner strength to survive it. 

Because you will, you always do!

30 Rules for the Big 30!!

Yes I am finally at that age "that shall not be named”. How time flew I have no idea and it seems to me like it was only yesterday I was celebrating my 25^th. Well now that I am officially going to be an adult; I promise myself of the things that I will change now that my 20’s are OVER!!

So here I sit pondering how would I list these lessons , in  ascending or descending order and I find it appropriate and rather selfish to list them down in descending order to give some satisfaction to my soul of the lowering numbers (silly..maybe but ya am gonna turn 30 :/).

So here goes….. My Rules to Rule my 30’s.

30. You will never have enough money, so spend wisely but spend on the things you want.

29. Always learn to practice “shut up” moments.

28. Yes, work hard but toot your horn at times.

27. Not everyone you meet is nice.

26. Complete your to –do / wish list.

25. When frustration builds, listen to music. That way you appreciate so much talent that there is..

24. Wear what you want even if its not in fashion, unless its ugly.

23. Let others pamper you sometimes.

22. You cannot make someone love you. Love but carefully, take your time.

21. Don’t be afraid to cry and admit failure.

20. Be brave, get that tattoo already ( this is more like a wishlist)

19. Explore, go see the world! There is so much in this world for your eyes to see and heart to feel.

18. Don’t follow god blindly, use logic too but have faith…always

17. Time does not heal anything, you just learn to live with it. The pain always remains.

16. Read, Read, Read. You can never have enough of information and creativity.

15. Write, write, and write. Even if no one ever reads it

14. Inspiration comes at odd places and hours, don’t waste it.

13. Be cautious who you invest your energies in. Your time is precious.

12. Be kind, it may not make the world a better place..but it makes you a better person.

11. Accept that some people will always hate you and you cannot please everyone.

10. Spend time with the people who really love you. Life is short.

 9. Judge a person the right way, learn to let go of the wrong ones.

 8. Always listen ( another wishlist for my chatty self). That’s the key to everything

 7. Love kids, they grow up too soon.

 6. Ignorance is bliss, trust me!

 5. Makeover’s are not always a blessing.

 4. Cherish true friends the real ones are your family too. Cut frenemies from your life..NOW!!

 3. Reflect on yourself, change what you don’t like

 2. There is no better solace than your family. Family is everything!!!

 1. Love yourself!

See you at 40!!! :p

1 month of #100happyDays

So as promised I present the 32 days of fun filled stuff which made realise just how lucky I am. You know when you are at a point when you hit rock bottom but that tiny voice says "FIGHT", that's one this challenge happened to me.

As I prepared myself to start the challenge, my spirits soared high, birds sounded chirpy, I could hear the rustle of leaves, the cool breeze, suddenly I started focusing on the little things.

The change that I see in myself - I want to be happy..there are moments, people, memories who make you sad but to over come it is the best feeling. There were days when you want to give up  but then I am lucky I guess because there were people to cheer me on and help me get my moment.

Conclusion: i want to give happiness, I want to do it not because of a challenge but because of the love, joy and respect that I see in their eyes. i have strengthened my bonds forever now than more and I am thankful, grateful for it.

 I love music, there is nothing better to make you feel happy, sad, disoriented, disappointed or nostalgic. This song is just amazing. Jess Glynn does have one of the most powerful voices today, the lyrics totally how I feel..such a connect!!

This was the first day that I had started the challenge, there were so  many that I actually could not decide till this rickshaw guy came along. In short - one of the best bumper stickers that should not be told but implemented. Even though its sad that it is supposed to be inbuilt and still is not.

haha this was the best..we are crazy people..I mean ok we all have our share of personal baggage but when we meet at lunch to quote a frnd - "we can talk about Gandhi, female problems and food etc etc in the same conversation without bouts of laughter which creates mad ambiance.

This was day two...what can I say..good food, good company and office politics discussions ..enough said!

Ahhhh weddings...its amazing that such a celebration even though it might not be yours can help you find your happy moment. The best part of wedding for me - dressing up, fun, food and dance!!

ok this had to put up..my mom is at my sisters ya..so 6 months of living without home cooked food was killing me. Thankfully I have family n friends who love me * bats lashes* and made me feel at home. My family did not let me feel alone and I ended up spending most of my time at their place which was soooo much fun!

Hehe one of those days where you have to..I repeat have to follow beauty procedures to look pretty!

Wow this is Farheen maam, always happy and she teaches you so many things, I thought i had troubles, her husband passed away in a car accident in march of this year at Holi and looking at her you see the pain in her eyes but never in her demeanor. She is still the same, not bitter or scorned and keeps joking around as if everything is fine. She still cries when we talk and am happy to share her memories, proud actually. This day she was talking about all the funny pregnancy issues and made me laugh so much.... I love her spirit!

awww office colleague bought her son to office and he could not resist my charms ..heh! Such a cute baby, remembered my own lil devils when I held him!

Spontaneous Road trip to Haridwar...wooooww..such serenity...such wonder!

Am crazy..I know ur thinking it...But yes I am..and I need more of these! look how pretty!!!!

Like you must have guessed am crazy about girlie stuff..I have this huge collection of flowers that you can put in your hair very funky very bohemic and quite good at fetching compliments.

There is nothing, I mean nothing that can take away the beauty of rural India...it's going back to your roots..literally!!

This is a friend...she is finally getting married to the guy she wanted to get married to. Such a happy day...after all the hardships...happy ending..who is not happy when they hear about happy endings!

amazing weather, good company and pakora...chai was missing...hehe

My sisters are the best. There is no question to this fact...I am lucky...my bday's coming up so guess what I like the attention and the gifts :p

My mom...miss her so much...well not for long gonna be with her sooooooonnnn

awww my school friend had a baby girl..after 30 hours of labor (halleluiah), there she was 2.9 kgs cute as a bundle and a soaring attitude hehe ...love

Mad fun with cousins...we could not stop laughing that my mamu actually had to threaten us that he will chuck us out of the car if we didn't stop.

After slogging the entire day..and completely forgetting my happy moment I called my friend in panic that I need my moment ...so we all ended up at her place, hungry and ready to dish out lots of dirt and laugh our hearts out...whhatta day!

So my cuz had been unwell for most part of her 12th and she cried like crazy when the results were declared. So to cheer her up..I thought hard and then surprised her.

I love plants and flowers, this one died completely and I (mainly) my Gardner brought it back to life...

I am skillful to say the least..one of which is making people look good...haha so gave a makeover...she is happy so was I !

How weird it is that you meet some people and instantly connect, I met Neeru as she is my cuz's aunt. Born and brought up in London but still so Indian at heart,we only met a couple of times but have connected so much its just fun when I am with her. She is a beautiful person, inside and out..been through so much and I guess that;s what makes her beautiful..she cherishes the happy times and never takes things for granted.

Meeting gari after getting yelled at, screamed and abused lol...I know I should be more regular with meeting friends but her am only one small (big) person lol...But as usual, heart to heart conversations and shopping does have its perks...what a night!

Binta masi and shreya..two of my fav people...they are just unique in their own way. Masi is just the funniest and like a best friend that you have. Shreya lol well we met in Bangalore on an event.. an we connected so well and we've been besties ever since...we have shared so much..heartaches, passions, happy moments, the birth of her baby and of course our crazy talks.

another gift...yeahhh..its MK...awestruck!!!!

Shoppping...enough said...Man the book confessions of a shopaholic..so me!!

I love my work and it shows I guess. I am very passionate about what I do...there is a sense of achievement and satisfaction I get when I see happy faces :)

hahah another one of our epic lunches,,,,lets not even got the mango pic...so much fun ...

HUGH JACKMAN!!!! * exits to dream*

Latest one...a frnd had just got back from Paris and Italy..am heading out to vacation..one day window and we use it well.. Bought a new MAC...omg I can die its so hot...amazing food..BIG CHILL will soon give me loyalty card haha and gup shup and movie...fun times

The best part about this challenge I think is that if the entire day you do not a moment which makes you happy... you want to create it!

Will see you with more next month!!!!

Ciao