Adieu!

When you associate with a person or an organization, you undertake a journey. Anything that lays an imprint on your heart will leave a scar or a mark (pleasant or otherwise) on your mind. I’ve always been the one who used to opt for small projects, finish them and move on to learning new things that gave me a different perspective. In more than 9 years of my working life, I have realized that I have made more human connections as well as gained knowledge, seems kind of lucky right. 

Farewells are not an easy part of life yet we are aware of how important new beginnings are, even though many a times they bring along with them a sense of discomfort and anxiety. The constant push of life is experienced truly only when you embrace change. Human beings are programmed to find structure in things, be it in relationships or life in general. The hardest part still remains that we end up not spending time and physical proximity with the people we have bonded with. 

At the start of this year, I promised myself new beginnings and all for better causes. I didn’t imagine the impact of my resolution will bring forth a sense of heartache yet again. Saying goodbye to someone is the hardest thing to do, even though you know that you will remain associated with them for all your life. Five years, I guess is the period of change that life forces on me every single time. Even though it always is the hardest to cope with, I left another home today and my heart broke again. All of that strength just tumbles and you are overwhelmed with emotion when you realize what you mean to someone and what they mean to you. 

My recent ex- job (heh) had been such a home for me for five years, even though I’ve loved every minute of this crazy journey, and found people who will always hold a special place in my heart and a permanent place in my life, but sometimes you just know you have to move on. Personal growth maybe great but it leaves you with a sense of the strength you need badly in order to branch out in your life. Five years of hard work, laughter attacks, smiles, so much food and alcohol, tears and even anger, all was brought out again with the memories that people shared with me on my last day at work. From people who I never thought were close to me, had tears in their eyes, and it left me overwhelmed. The gifts and the hugs and all the special treatment by every single member of my office was heart warming.

My immediate boss (ex), gave a heart wrenching farewell speech that brought tears in all our eyes. I will never forget how she held my hand throughout, kept kissing my hand and blessed me. You don’t really need an accolade when your work is appreciated by others who know and encourage you and know that you are deserving of much more. It's so rewarding to know how highly they think of you as a person. It touches you, that all your gestures, however minuscule, they were accepted and acknowledged and will be missed immensely. 

All the good wishes, small gestures like any gift that they give as per their capacity or any short speeches delivered about you, or lunches given to you or hell made you feel special in any way, they all make a difference. It truly makes a difference knowing that your presence will be missed. It need not be said at times though but shown in how hugs linger a little bit longer or when people go out of their way to make you know how they feel about you. It changes you when you know that you’ve earned love and respect, you've earned your place in their lives. And this my friend is worth remembering.