A little wish!

Like the wings of a butterfly,
Like the roar of a lion,
How I wish I could be some one else.


Flying up in the sky,
or ruling the pasture,
oh how I wish,
for that one wish to fulfill tonight.

So many tears,
don't know how they would stop,
is that a way to live,
deep in sorrow and pain.

How I wish to be free,
How I wish to sing,
To dance and forget all my worries,
Maybe I am not there tomorrow,
To celebrate these little things and glory.

I am lost,
I watch myself sleep,
I don't know where am running to,
I don't know who would catch me.

Just a simple wish,
still remains in my heart,
Maybe, someday, somewhere,
And then I realize,
It's just a little too late.

I love the rains!!

There is just something so magical about rains, don't you think?

The way the skies prepare themselves to shower beautiful, tiny little drops of water which fill us with relief. How they hide the sun in the white, smouldering, shiny hoards of clouds.

How the sunshine hide's behind all that wondrous ball of white fur growling in anticipation!

The slow breeze picking pace, leaves preparaing themselves to quench their thrist. It's amazing how the mood changes from the shades of the sky to how we feel.

I love the rains!! There is no other feeling to describe it. To watch the little drops from heaven travel from so far to unite with the earth. The invigorating smell of wet earth drinking each drop of heavenly water, merging together. There is no better union of heaven and earth !

Suddenly you feel happy and all you wanna do is dance, throw out your arms and just......twirl. Sing in this heavenly shower...and let peace come to you as you splash around and forget all your worries!!

NUMB!

The emotions just come and go before I become numb. It's been 6 months but still the feelings haunt me. I don't know how people manage it, maybe someday i'll know too. But as of now am not doing so great.

What I have realised these past couple of months is that you cannot trust anyone except ur family only if ur close to them. otherwise people just walk over you. I have realised that on the outside they may be charming, trying to show every possible face but who they really are.

Are we so scared? are we so fake? Who do you turn to, when there is no one left. What are the sea of people around you for? These thoughts come to me when I am confused. The ofcourse comes his sister misery. Then all the bad deeds done to you come flashing by and you realise just how easy it is for people to fool you.

Then comes hate, so powerful replacing all the love that you had to the point where you just want revenge and then you think who are you to do that. Mostly because you can't to be honest. Then you turn spiritual and wish that karma would do your job.

But eventually you see that the people who have done you wrong are still happy and that's because they don't care. This becomes your problem because you still care. There should be a medicine to finally make you numb before you go through this procedure because it rips you open and you realise what a big fool you are?

A silent prayer!

How it hurts to know your not the one,

How it seems stupid I thought you would stay on,

I should have not ignored the signs,

They were loud and clear,

I just didn’t want to lose your sight,

Now it hurts me even more,

More than I can ever say,

I keep it in my heart,

Shed it in my tears everyday,

But now I know my worth in your life,

There is no comparison to my love,

Which I had for you and your lies,

But now I know I cant stay on,

Even with the memories after you have gone,

The way you hurt me ill never forget,

Nor will I ever let myself forgive,

The pain you caused me opened my eyes,

To teach me to never believe the lies,

I just want this feeling to go away,

For you to vanish and your memories to go away,

I want to start afresh, a new life a new beginning,

I want to forget your existence your being.

Heart & Soul!

What can I do to make my heart stop believing,

What can I do to make my soul stop hurting,

Its so hard sometimes, and sometimes seems so easy,

But I know now its not cause my heart wont stop believing.

You did me wrong, over and over,

Picked and dropped me like I was a loner,

It hurt me then and hurts me now,

Broken hearted but still the hope wont die down!

I tell myself everyday,

How you are no good for me anyway,

But then I don’t know why,

Even god wont stop showing me signs.

I think it’s a penance that am suffering,

Don’t know what I did to deserve this thing,

All I wanted was you to love me,

Instead you made a fool of me.

Played with me, toyed with me,

And all this while all I did was allow you to do it to me,

Even now when I know the truth,

Know that you are in her arms,

Saying her name like you did mine,

Hold her hand like you did mine,

All my heart will do is just wish it was still mine.

I know its wrong, I know it’s ended,

I just want you to go away forever,

So that the hurt will not get me,

I want to forget your existence,

I want to forget what you put me through,

To forget that I love you,

To forget that you said you did too!!

**Shining Star**

Sitting all alone,
as I watch the sun set,
watching silhouettes form.

A slight breeze blows by,
I look up onto the sky,
Just one star that twinkles away.

The story is the same,
When you look at the sky,
Even in the clusters,
that single star shines.

How it yearns to be with other,
Ignoring it's self,
Loosing it's identity,
To meld with someone else.

And then one day comes,
When a bond breaks,
When a single tear escapes,
And it's back to being lonely again!

??????

AAaaarrrrggggghhhhhhh!!!!!

That’s the exact thought that I have been having for the past couple of days. I mean WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE! I have witnessed in the last two years things which I thought would never happen, atleast to me. All my confidence in humanity has been officially lost!

All I see is how people are becoming more and more selfish, greedy and have no respect of how others feel by the things they do or for that matter how it affects them. It’s so unimaginable but still it happens. People do it all the time, relationships ends, friendships end..and that’s all we are left with. Feeling of bitterness, hate..just imagine someone you could not live without suddenly become the one you don't want to see.....EVER!

How people lose their perspective and how they manipulate the things and people around them for what….a few min, days,months, years…what is left of them in the end. Do they ever get back those feelings they lost, the people they lost, the memories that they could have made.

At what price are we sacrificing our humanity, our values , our morals. I think its time we take a step back and think where are we heading!