There are things in this life you feel will never happen to you or you wont let them happen and then bam your hit with the worst thing and that worst feeling stays with you. Its so hard to fight the urges, to deal with the pain and to console your soul. No matter how many friends you talk to and no matter how many times you abuse that one person. It still hurts pretty darn bad. The tears come after long breaks now but still they do…everyone says it takes time…but really does it ever heal. The hurt, the betrayal stays with you forever…becomes a part of you. Changes you somehow, I don’t know if its for the better or worse though.
That one person who held your hand, who told you he won’t leave suddenly leaves you stranded in the middle not knowing which direction you should head to. Your soul is torn apart, your heart breaks into a thousand pieces and yet you have to be ok and calm. You see your world breaking down as you helplessly sit on one corner..like watching a movie, feeling every minute of it but still it’s like its not happening to you.
And then you see and come to know the reasons, the things that person said. If you thought the heart break hurt, well you didn’t see this coming. So many memories flash before your eyes. You feel stupid, so naïve for not seeing the truth. But then again it’s only human I guess.
Human to hurt someone and human enough to be hurt. So ya I don’t know which is worse, knowing or the unknown but ultimately both lead to multifolds of pain!!
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