Misunderstood!

Is it just me? I think it’s just me. 

How do you convey your perspective to someone? How do you put things across? Do people believe you to be fake? Do they think you are not what you say you are? Do they not see the sincerity in your words? I don’t know how I feel, its oscillating somewhere between feeling upset, anger, shock and introspection. Currently, I feel absolutely numb. My thoughts are jumbled. I don’t know what to make of the present situation. Is it best to keep quiet? Is it best to speak up? When you meet someone for the first time, why is there no manual that comes with them, to instruct you and help you guide in how to deal with them?

Once a person has created a perception about you, is there a point to defend it? So, you hear them out and accept it after arguing your point across. I’ve heard some pretty not so great claims about my behaviour and personality off late. All you can do then is to beckon the perseverance, empathy, and benevolence to listen sympathetically to someone else's perspective knowing that you cannot force them to change it but can only accept it and hope in time they see it for themselves. To come to a conclusion about how you are as a person, themselves.

Okay, I'm human. I’ve never been the one to fake emotions. I cannot manipulate people and it enrages me so when people think that I’m whatever perception of me they have built in their heads. I believe in open communication and clear communication for that matter. What I don’t like, I state. I’m emotional and it often comes out in more ways than one. It hurts that your actions are taken negatively. I used to be someone who used to make sure that my thoughts and actions convince the other person that I care but constantly having to explain your care for someone becomes taxing. What do you do then? You silence yourself. If you’ve said enough, more than enough, shouldn’t it be enough?  And at that time it’s rather unwise to be constructing your most potent contentions to persuade them that your point of view is befitting. Often in arguments, you learn what the other person thinks of you. Hurt as you may be, you understand then why your side never holds up.

Maybe, it is a fake world. People don’t value genuineness anymore. Maybe they've never met a lot of true souls. All that remains is hope, that people may see who you truly are. Now, I think it’s best to open up to people who understand your true nature.  If not, well, there isn’t anything more you can do anyway. Just go with the flow!