You know how we watch scary movies and the killer goes on a killing spree. You watch each murder after murder and you flinch, scream and then the movie ends. The killer is caught or dies and it justifies all his wrongful acts. But what about the ones who kill your heart? Who seeks to avenge your heart when it is killed by many people? People just say "oh, that's normal, you'll be fine", but are you ever fine? You might end up with someone and be happy, I have no doubts about that but you never forget how your heart broke. You never forget the tears. You never forget the pain.
It's hard. I will not lie to you, it's very hard to digest the fact that you open up your heart to someone and every single time you end up witnessing how it gets squashed over and over. My worst trait is that I keep thinking of things and people that hurt me. Knowing the guy I love ( well, kinda), he will be busy romancing another, while writing about me or anyone and going home to someone else. Yet, the thing about love is, when you love someone, even though you might not see eye to eye at some point, it does not mean that the love goes away. You see it everyday in your eyes, you teach your heart everyday to move on, you silently break down every tiny piece of your soul that holds this love. That's the penance your heart has to suffer every day and every night.
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