Harmonize!

I cannot explain this feeling. This fleeting feeling which was angst and envy the minute you see your love give attention to one, two or no wait,  about a gazillion girls. You don't think rationally during that time, you think maybe something is wrong with me, even though there isn't any, but that's another tactic people (men and women) use. It's classic!!!! It breaks your heart and it literally puts you on edge and having faced it, I know I never want to feel that again. The point of falling in love with a person is that you love THAT person for whoever they are and vice versa. It shouldn't be that you have to feel your heart breaking when you see them flirting with another or when you see them with another talking of love like you never mattered. No, it isn't a great feeling! The fact that you know you were, rather your heart was used and abused, nope, not a great feeling at all. I mean, why would you ever want to feel that way again! 

Then, there comes one day, when you start to empathize with those other women. Even though you detest the fact that you were one of so many puppets, the realization of which hurts like a bitch by the way, but then again you begin to see them as a person, who like you, fell for him.  You understand what they feel like and feel sad because you know their fate. But exceptions are always there, sometimes people are not genuine on either side. But still it's not a great feeling that you keep your heart on hold for someone who uses hearts like tissues. However, like they say, everything teaches you a lesson in life, you learn to avoid such people and situations that may hurt you. You accept the current circumstances and you try to move on. You use all your might. You try to expend all the love you have for a person and wish for it at times to let it go. Even though this other little part of you still loves him - or that version of him that you once believed was real, there is nothing you can do about it, till you just get to live with it. And knowing that that's the part of him he's parading around now, hurts a little - so it's like you're mourning "that version" of him all over again. So, take this feeling to heart whenever you feel sad or irritated, works like a charm, understand that this too will make you immune. You will begin to understand, you will begin to break free. And just then you know that  you have to let them do whatever or whoever they want because they sure as hell are missing out on you. Know that they actually make it easier for you because you see them doing this stuff.