The Fuck!

WHAT THE FUCK DOES HE WANT?

This is insane, that's it, this is insane! This need to torment someone is so selfish. I knew he will act this way, this is exactly how he is. He uses women, he abuses love. I know we can't ever and yet he comes back every time to haunt me. How much of my strength has gone into ignoring him and getting over him, only I know. He has a life, he has a partner, he has ample sluts and yet he chooses to target me. I mean go, fuck the world, who cares. After he has made contact with all the women before me, purposely made clear that it's him (not that I needed that confirmation), he did it. He touched me again. 

After everything that he did, he dared to come back. And even if he did as a freaking option when none of the others are working out. I'm sorry he should have realised by now that I'm not the girl who likes to be treated as an option. I ain't in the running to be a side chick. I will never keep myself in that position. 

If he is expecting an apology, he better not. Did he apologize to me when he lied to me, when he used me, when he tormented me, when broke my heart, DID HE? Does he expect that I will ever apologize? He has a good life, he has access to whatever shit he wants but he still chooses to harass me. Maybe, I'm not even the target, maybe he is trying the same torture on someone else. But I will NOT be a pawn in his game. I am done, I loved him with all my heart and got betrayed instead. This is never going to happen. He has to go, even though tiny part of my still cares for him, but he has to go.