How many times do you really think to find yourself? We often find ourselves after something affects us, it really is never a self driven process. From the sages and saints that we read about or worship, when you read about them and listen to their stories, this is the only conclusion you come to.
There are days when you just don't want to face the world, you're not ready for it. It's not because you can't but because there are nights when everything around you is quiet and you can hear your heartbeat so loud it's like a gong in your head. The worst question to find an answer for is who you are. What you do know about yourself is the firm belief of your own character traits but the response to a situation is impossible to gauge. You don't know who you are, because you don't know how you will respond to a situation. Sometimes the hurt is so bad that you become bad ass gangsta and go bat shit crazy or you become so ignorant that it no longer affects you.
For instance I'm not in love with anyone at the moment and that's okay. I have feelings that need healing, hurt that needs detoxification. The need to build myself back to be who I was is so strong that it makes me anxious. To become that person before people happened to you. So much more of you is waiting in a corner of your mind, heart and soul for the right person to get to know you, appreciate you and love you.
We often end up comparing ourselves to people and grade them in our mind undermining all of our achievements and our lives. You are the best version of you, that should never change but need to be improved upon. Change the damaged parts, fill the broken cracks, you have the power to do it, you just need the will to go get it. You have all the right ingredients for it. Just breathe and enjoy the uniqueness that is you. Someone will always be better than you, but that someone will never be you.
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