Danke!

It's truly an enriching sentiment when you get to know that people value your words. My blog has always been a very personal open diary. I was very apprehensive about sharing my moods, my thoughts, my emotions and my life with strangers or anyone who would like to read me initially. For the longest of times I never used to share what I wrote, it was kept hidden in a dairy but I guess that didn’t last long. When I started blogging, no wait, when I started sharing what I wrote, the number of comments that I received was astonishing. To get an understanding of all the different perceptions that were instigated due to a thought transpired by me left me with a sense of satisfaction and intrigue. I now know that it's worth putting yourself out there. 

I usually become a recluse when I’m upset or when I'm hurt and ironically that's when I write best. I didn't know that people would actually miss that. This last month was like a tsunami again so I went back to my cave. All the messages that were bombarded at me to reopen my blog was overwhelming. Some of really great writers I respect enormously apparently like to read me and encouraged (pushed to the edge actually) to open my blog again and this post is to thank you all. I might actually take up your offer to publish a book soon too ;) 

There is no better feeling than knowing that you relate to others or that somehow what you say is just what is needed to be heard when someone is troubled. Someone recently asked me how I write with such passion. I never really thought about that because to me there is a lot of value addition that my work still needs. But this really got me thinking. I don't mull over what to write, it just flows and that's problematic because if I don't capture that transient emotion right away, it gets lost among the intricacies of my life. My life has always been a roller-coaster and yet I don’t know if I should be grateful or no. It’s been a helluva ride. 

My work always seems too raw to me. But now I know that it's what I'm good at, being utterly raw because that's how I feel when I write. It’s like when am happy and write, I can literally feel the energy just uplifting me and when I’m sad, the writing becomes a little troublesome because the tears don’t stop. which is why I never revisit my work because I know I will see some grammatical mistake or a typo and most definitely because it awakens all my demons. When at times I do, I end up cursing myself for not doing some thorough proof reading which I usually don't because then I feel like it's a piece of my "work". So, please allow me a little slack when I don't meet the standards of good writing. 

So, in the end all I would like to say… thank you! Thank you for reading me, thank you for relating and thank you for remembering my words. 

Gracias!