Diabolical

Some songs, like this one posted above, are pure evil. It's funny how whatever you feel, whatever you're going through can be summed up in a song in just 3:48 minutes. All the memories flash in front of your eyes in a couple of minutes. It's like one morning when you decide against odds you will make sure you feel better, the playlist catches you off guard and boom we are back to square one. 

Life cycle of my love life never really stays in one phase. Once finished and I was hoping beyond hope for the next one to not run its course in a similar way but I guess phase by phase I get to relive it again. Letting go of your love is not easy, especially when you have real feelings for a person. The flood of memories when you listen to a song that you connect to at a deeper level is like mass murder but just of one person, so every cell in your body is mascaraed once again. 

We secretly hope no matter how old we get for someday to live a fairly tale, to be an exception, to feature in our own movie with a happy ending, till its time again to let another dream go. You are supposed to sweep the shards of this broken dream under the rug of your past and move forward. You have to deal with the pain of loving someone who will never be yours and you end up taking away every chance that you might ever give them because whenever you have, they've always blown it. That is the reality that you have to live with. So, you lock away your deepest feelings knowing that they would never see the light of day because just like the sunshine they will always be taken for granted.