Waking Up!

Lying where my body's spread,

Spinning pictures inside my head,

But like the sun shines through the dark clouds,

The picture of you is what stands out. 

How can I go on,waking up I'm the only one now,

Missing your touch, your presence,

I feel so disoriented. 

With the distant sound echoing in my head,

A tear rolls slowly along my face,

Speaking words i thought I never will,

My love has been laid to rest. 

Never had a better friend,

My heart will never mend,

Never got to say goodbye,

Never knew the reason why. 

Never to have my arms around you again,

I always will wish I had more time to spend,

Never had you out of my head,

Until I realised I woke up to my own death! 

Where is the love?

I mean seriously, sitting here at a coffee shop waiting for a friend to arrive all I wanna do is smack the shit out of certain ppl.

Man such annoying people, screw sanskriti indian men have lost the basic manners.

Simple things like talking in a decent manner with a decent pitch hell no all they wanna do is yell like maniacs.

Talk about gettin a headache, it feels like ceiling has fallen over my head. Seriously more than education what needs to be taught well is basic social skills.

The Real You!

Countless faces you hide behind,
Wonder what goes on in your mind,
What is it that you want to hide?
Or is it just your silly pride.

What lies behind that facade,
What always puts you on your guard,
Your eyes expressionless and veiled,
Your thoughts oh so well concealed.

To say the right thing you always try,
Whether its true or a white lie,
But you owe me some honesty,
Even if it affronts my modesty.

Try for once to be yourself,
Instead of pretending to be someone else,
Ive seen all your varied hues,
But I still long to know the real you!

Wonder

Ahhh finally the cold is gone. As I welcome summer, its a beginning of a new life, new hopes and dreams.

I finally figured out most of the chaos in my head, need just a head start on things. I know what I want and need. I am ready to receive.

Suddenly it seems like I have a clear vision into the future. Of my expectations and desires of what and how I want my life to be. The only thing I need is one gentle push, a slight shove and there just right there I can feel it in my reach.

People who don't matter or never will moved away. I came to know about what it means to be and have a friend. What kind of people I am blessed to have around me to love me.

Today as I stand, watching the stream of life glide by, I know where I am heading.

Is it?

So two words can make all the difference. Two words of confusion, conviction, question or devastation.

How different can two words be and what can they make you feel is entirely what you believe and/or perceive.

Random thought, is it?

If only!

Would have done anything,
Fought with the world,
Stood for anything, against anyone,
Done everything, said something,
If only you said yes!

For us, I would have hoped,
Would have cried and wailed,
Sailed away, told lies, convinced everyone,
Done enough, left nothing,
If only you said yes!

Left everyone, loved nothing,
Was a lot at stake,
Would not cave in,
Never give in, held tight,
If only you said yes!

Instead, stood alone, fought alone,
Cried alone, died alone,
Sighed alone, broke alone,
Cause you never said yes!

A Song too many

A song I heard,
Its melody so slow,
Full of sorrow, not hope nor glow,
As I listen, my heart sores!

All the memories come flooding back,
How a melody strummed,
Can bring peace or agony at once?

A tear rolls, a smile fades,
How I trapped myself again,
Time flew, but its back again,
That wind that froze, blew again!

A blocked door, found a way again,
That rusted lock, threw open today,
Trapped soul of mine cried again,
My wish never fulfilled, died again!