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There is something about certain things that make you obsessive. What is it that triggers obsession I will never know. It’s just this fire, which burns you and soon you are engulfed in it, burning your pride along with it. Thou shall not be jealous!! Hello who ever said that must either be deceiving or must be too holy for their own good.

I keep obsessing over my weight, my clothes, my relationships, family even something as mundane as the weather but somehow we always land up in a place where you don’t want to be emotionally. The tides of emotions, feelings of despair or sometimes of happiness take you towards two different spectrums which confuse’s me further.

Being obsessive has made me realize that I have become someone am not, whoa a personality shift has happened and when did the transition take place I have no clue..nada. But this person here is not so welcoming, I have lost my spirit somewhere, stranded somewhere on a lonely island all alone. Geez, is this what getting old means then I don’t want to go there.

I don’t see the reasons in things that are happeneing around me. I can’t accept certain things in my life. Everyone keeps saying wait and watch but I am tired of waiting and watching…ever have the same feeling anyone..tell me I am not alone in this!