Satisfy me!

There are always a plethora of wishes, some fulfilled and most left unfulfilled. It has to be one of the most difficult things that maybe a human can ever manage. Countless stars we wish on, countless omens we think we see. Its just never enough.

When we are young our lives are so simple, so basic. We don't worry and we communicate what we need, what we feel. What changes when we grow up? We fail to talk, we fail to understand and we fail to empathize. Yet it is a very dangerous thing to be naive in this world. People will fool you, and you will be hurt.

I look back over the years and it seems to have taken me so long to figure certain things out in life. Too late but atleast not late enough. People continue to disappoint you. Life continuously makes your journey strenuous. Is it worth it?

This year is coming to an end and so I really want to start work on a bucket list but not for my physical self - a list for my soul. Have not thought about how I will do it or what it will consist of. But I know its a time to transform myself - mainly my soul. I don't want to live this life in a cauldron of wants. It will only spew evil.

People always find it weird why I keep taking up challenges, they feel that I try to prove to others I am cool or how it is easy for others to rile me up. Well I thought a great deal about it. I admit it hurt a little, even though coming from a stranger - it affected me a little. But I did realize that it should not matter, I don't know these people. I should rest my belief in the ones who believe in me and help me explore different aspects of me.

So yes I want to satisfy my soul now, feed it love and happiness and let it breathe kindness. I want to give up agony and work through my struggles with ease.I want to enjoy time with the people I love and I want to do something productive with my life.