Of little dreams!

You know what's the most demeaning thing you can do? It's to make a person compete for your love. Whether it's with someone you recently dated or your memories/past. 

I'm scared to really fall in love, as in knee deep, butterfly flutter, only you kinda love.  I've been there once, it took a lot of effort to come out of it, but I did. For me, love is as old school as it comes. It brings those butterflies. I invest myself completely. I love with gusto. I somewhere forgot that feeling. I was so deep in hurt that I forgot my worth. Everyone deserves a person who loves them to the core. But somewhere now the definition of love has changed for me. 

There was a time, when it was about the similarity in likes and dislikes. To be honest, various attributes, fun and frolic. But as I went through what I did, it awakened me. I'm at a stage where now I meet people, hear stories of who are married, who are happy or unhappy. The checklist has changed completely. That checklist is definitely not about materialistic things. It's refined a little, nope a lot.  I won't lie that there are certain qualities and traits I still seek but looks and money is surely not one of them. Money actually never was. I always wanted some stability, that's it. 

In a world full of chaos. I want peace. There are so many battles you fight everyday, that you just want one person to lay your head on and relax. Someone to rely on. Someone who knows that you can manage everything on your own and all you really need is support, kisses and hugs that ensure things will be better. That feeling of being home. That security and protection. Someone who doesn't go around the world investing in "emotional one night stands". 

At this age, everyone comes with baggage, you need someone who accepts it, not so you can burden them but love the person who is now with you for who they are, today. As an empowered woman, I don't need a man to do things for me. I don't want his money. The only thing I need are things which I crave intrinsically. The fact that he wants to come home to me. He makes me secure. He wants to make love to me every night. He doesn't call me 24x7 but let's me know i'm on his mind. He wants to protect me, believes I'm his confidant. He stands by me. We swim through the rough times and cherish the happy ones. He doesn't fake things or lie because yeah a woman can figure it out and can walk away. That's the love I want.