Friday, June 27, 2014

On a Stranger's Tide....



How does it feel when your heart breaks over and over again….NUMB..that’s the feeling you go through..an unfaltering abyss…..you don’t care …you don’t feel the tears burning in your eyes, they just slide away. They don’t stop..no they don’t but involuntarily just do what they were meant to do.

All you are faced with is the hard reality of life and pain. That’s the feeling that you most feel..utter pain..and then you feel frustration. Someone who you once knew and loved is now a stranger, heading forever into the arms of another, becoming someone else’s destiny, the father of her children.

Love which had turned to hate and then denial. You still have the memories, you still hoped for those what if’s for the impossible to happen but then at when you are faced with the truth you see your hopes and dreams buried with clarity. All the scenarios you played out in your head and all the situations you prepped yourself for…just vanish….

To each his own, that holds true…maybe I didn’t see it yesterday but today it’s staring me right in the face. It is actually a satisfaction that you can finally move on in your life. It’s a message that urges you to find your own happiness.

Suddenly you don’t want to think of all the good times you shared…or the intense pain the other gave you, which left you dead and cold. You no longer wait for the unsaid apology but still you forgive.. or try to. All the reasons you wanted to know why it didn't work out, why you were not worth the fight…dissolve! Close that chapter, you don’t belong there. Mend your heart and your soul…fight for your sanity!

You have been wronged..yes very much..you devoted yourself and then you were left out on the path you both dreamed while the other still continued on it.  Count your blessings at this point, repeat “This too shall pass” and call your inner strength to survive it. 

Because you will, you always do!

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