That Awkward Place

Yes, in that stage of life where am confused between being or rather relating to a young adult and well an oldie ahem elderly *oops*…So I turned 30 and yes am super depressed…*totally sympathising with Joey going – Why GOD why do you  do this to us. * Sigh.

Well you see the thing that gets me muddled is the difference of attitude, talks and thoughts of both the generations. I have seen both sides, I see the young ones with all their wit and crass behaviour and towards the other end of the spectrum the oldies or would be oldies having massive experience and some seriously good insight.

I shadow both and I grasp who both try to be and the upshot usually leaves me more befuddled. I reminisce as I look at the youngsters and think WHY was my generation not this cool. Then I listen to them berate each other, perplexed about their personalities or considerably their lack of identity. I shift so quick to the oldies it’s not even funny. But then again as they say that grass is greener on the side- this idiom holds water.  I see people who have failed to live their youth successfully and then as they are exposed to social media, it’s like the worst compulsion they get addicted to. It’s more of Hollywood high school gone 80’s. The politics, the childish behaviour of “oooo she didn’t like my pic” or “ ooo she has 100 likes on THAT picture” and numerous hours wasted on spying on what the other person is doing or socialising with.

 Could you ever imagine our mum’s flirting with strange men online, proclaiming their love, wearing the shortest of clothes, looking hotter than their kids and partying. NO..my generation ( well most of the ones I like :p) does not either because well we have done our share of this stuff.

For me and my kind, spending an evening with a good book or in company of people we like lead us to satisfaction.Yes social media has advantages of connecting us, making us network more, be aware of good times and the worse with our so called “social circle” *this I realized after quitting facebook – but one of the best things I did for me I think* but I want to be around people who understand and relate to me, it does not hurt that they are funny but there are qualities that I admire and want them in the people now I choose to be with. I want to be with people who respect me, who know my struggles and have seen me and helped me become a better person. What I don’t want is a naïve kid telling me what riles me up. Well fuck that shit if it does, that just goes to show am human. What I do want is people of my age or more and the sensible young ones, to help me discover things, passions, information, gain insight, enlighten me and teach me things which sometimes due to being in a closed environment and busy times is forgotten or ignored. 

Even though I must admit, the new generation has a world of experience maybe more than what we had when we were their age. But I feel they lost so much more. They live ahead of their age, they start looking and feeling more mature. Where is the kid, where is the joy of being kiddish and doing stupidest of things. That is what I miss most; the memories are so clear and still bring a smile to my face. I know the generation before me would feel the same way but I think we strike a good balance.

What do you think?