Friday, May 1, 2015

Sentiments Adrift!

Some wise man once said that you don’t choose who you like or love. Agreed it might not hold true in today’s time where people often seek more material aspects for a relationship than the person they are in a relationship with. However, apart from this a basic question still remains – yes, you can fake feelings but can you deny them?

You might like a person and be aware of their limitations but you still end up caring, what happens then? You choose to accept them for who they are right. But then what happens when at one point you feel like you are imposing yourself on them. Some respect your feelings and turn you away gently, where some are harsh and make things crystal clear. Whatever said, feelings should be respected if not reciprocated. You, beyond your logic truly want to see a person do well or stay happy and more importantly want to make them happy. Somewhere amidst our insecurities though we seem to have forgotten the respect those feelings deserve. How do you know you are making a person happy by pushing them away towards someone who might not be good for them? How do you know that they will be happy without you? Maybe they will be, but that remains a mystery.  Life stops for no one, there are a plethora of people who come and go. You take each instance as a lesson.

We often tend to seek our worth through people. Some may agree or disagree but most often it is built on a sham of fake or genuine compliments or sometimes on the veritable views of the other person about you. But then, isn’t that person’s perception true since you displayed that. Does that mean that you falsified your character and personality? If not then it sure as hell confirms that you are who the other person thinks you are.

How many times we see people with jaded pasts, the number is increasing rapidly though. The innocence, the thrill, the excitement and the charm of being with a person is disappearing. Just like music, everything is turning artificial. We have forgotten how to fight, to love with intensity and with sincerity. Some thrive on the memories of the past, not looking ahead. Some look ahead and not cherish what they have right infront of them. Who truly loves then? The use of all motivational quotes is only left to read and forget. When do we apply the logic? But what logic can rationalize emotions. Vicious circle this.

It is an unbearable feeling to not say what you want. It’s almost like you are gagged and refused to speak or think or feel a certain way. Then why do we complain when people turn bitter or harsh or change or isolate themselves. They were never allowed to speak, to express to let the other know what they feel. This is what people do to each other – they cut tongues, clip the wings and force the heart, attune the brain to speak, fly, emote and express respectively. What do people mean when they say they want you happy? Who defines what makes you happy? Isn’t that for you to recognize and voice? In the end I guess it’s only a ploy by some good people to let you down easy. To let you understand on your own that you don’t deserve a chance. To push you away and into a future unknown where who knows what you get. 

But ofcourse, it’s all done to make sure you are happy!!

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