A day to write....

I really want to write today. I want to write whatever I feel. I want to write whatever I think. The weather is beautiful, clouds in a turmoil. Breathlessly waiting for the rain to shower and sprinkle on the earth. I hate this weird feeling. When you are strong one minute and the next your heart screams. You feel this sensation, you know like a prick on the inside. My brain is working overtime. So many varied thoughts. Memories. Wants. Desires. All cascading together. And then I saw this -

 How amazing it is to read this today. I wonder and yearn for my stars to shine and atleast give me some relief. Like the  parched earth waits for the rain. Like the rivers which snake through the valleys to meet the ocean. Like the lava destroys everything in its path to meet the heat.

All the things I thought I had faught, had dealt with and survived, came crashing on me again. I feel so scared. I am petrified. As I sit out gaping at the sky and tears welling in my eyes, I am shaking. My tears are so salty. I thought they would lack taste. I want to scream. I want to sit and just scream. My head hurts in places I didn't even know it could. Finally a few drops I can feel. Atleast I can cry in peace.