Today I wrote a note for every person who has been important in my life. For however brief a moment. Some notes remain in my drafts folder. I feel sad that I shall never be able to tell them, thank them. This is how it was to be. But they remain in my thoughts. It may be that sometimes the paths separate but they teach us, bless us in some way and drift apart.
Not going to be sad again today because frankly I am emotionally exhausted and my eyes really hurt. I've been in a drunk zombie mode for days now. My heart needs a break. My eyes need rest. They can barely see let alone cry. I give up. I am not going to fight anymore. I am going to just cherish people who are with me. Be thankful to God that they are there with me. They are there for hugs and kisses, laughter and cries and love. To talk endlessly about stupid things, meaningful conversations, sharing my pain and theirs. To know that they are there with me and for me.
Secretly maybe I wish a little for some people who were taken away from me and some who left. So, their note remains in my drafts in the hope that I may give it to them one day.
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