Missing You!

Maybe I am not important,

Maybe i'll get lost in the crowd,

Maybe you won't care. 

But as I drift through the day,

All I think of you and dare,

To dream and to remember,

Of the days we spent together. 

I look for your signs all around,

I pretend to be ok and sound,

I silently cry my tears in vain,

Maybe just maybe it would be the same. 

I write messages only to delete,

To tell you just how I feel,

To tell you how without you life is hell,

To tell you how my day went,

To ask you how yours was well spent,

To make sure you took care of you,

Because you mean so much more.

To be able to word my feelings uncontrolled,

How I worry and care for your whole,

What would I do for just a little space in your heart,

But you told me I can't dream it's wrong. 

Maybe I should walk away,

Never to bother you again,

Would it matter if I left?

Would you miss me a little bit?

Atleast I use my words till spent,

Knowing you will never know my hell. 

Every night tears pray to the soul,

Lips finds strength to utter the words,

I can't let you go is all I know,

I miss you so much and it kills me so.