Stand still!

No one really knows how you cope. I got some news and saw something and the dam broke again. The smiles on their face and their hands wrapped around each other. You don't want to see someone else being loved better than you by the person you love or loved. It's torturous. No matter how much you train yourself to not let it affect you, it does. It forever will because a part of you belongs to that person. A person who no longer values it. You are the past. You, are forgotten. Your love was never enough. You were never enough.

It must be a nice feeling to be fought for. To be craved. It must be an overwhelming feeling to be loved by someone who values you. It hurts equally more when they say you are precious, just not enough for them to own you. Yes it hurts, the dam is broken again. Six years, time flew. So many things came to light and so much hurt brewed. Those words still ring in my ears. His actions still torment me like daggers through the heart. Those moments, those memories still hurt. You smile but you know you are not the same. Six years, but the tears somehow flow again. Broken promises. Broken faith. Karma gets you and not them. It's time for you to wake up from the dream. 

I don't know why fates have never been kind to me. Maybe I am not worthy. Maybe they were right, maybe I am nothing. It's all a sham. It's all a story. Maybe I deserve to be cold. Maybe I need to be bold. Maybe I need to wake up. And even if they say otherwise, they show you your worth somehow. So don't listen to them when they say you are special. Because if they meant it, they would have showed it.